I always thought when I got to this point in my life, I'd be happy.

I always thought when I got to this point in my life, I'd be happy.

University and College are on the horizon. I can finally get out and live my own life. There are so many opportunities that are starting to present themselves.

But to be honest, I'm kinda scared.

The majority of my friends are a year older than me; they're graduating this year and leaving. All of the sudden I'm not going to be able to just call them up, just hang out for an evening. Some of them are moving cities, provinces and even countries. All of the sudden, I feel so alone.

Because next year, there will be almost no one left. It's just going to be me in my little town with my family.
I feel like I'm on the brink of so many goodbyes that I don't want to say. I mean, I'm happy for my friends, I really am. They get to go out and do what they've always wanted. I'm just sad that they have to leave.

And after I graduate, then what happens? When I leave, do I start over? Do I become a different person? What do I study?

All of these questions are terrifying me.

When I was younger, I used to dream about this time. I used to know exactly what I wanted and how I was going to get there. I guess I just never looked at the goodbyes and uncertainty.

We're all growing up so fast. Everything's moving so fast. People I've known since we ran around in diapers together, are becoming adults, going away to Universities and it feels like it's only been a few years.

I just want to hold on to what we have now. Can't we just pause life for a few years and enjoy it instead of rushing through it? Cause it seems that the older we get, the more complicated things are.


Can I just move to Neverland please?